ALL FOR A DREAM
A personal reflection on resilience, change, and the pursuit of a dream. From living in a car to building a vision, this is a story about refusing to give up and staying true to yourself.
In this life, I have experienced a whole lot of change. In change, I have learned of the impermanence of the world and my resolve to keep going, regardless of the circumstances. What is it that keeps me from giving up my light and surrendering to doubt?
One of the hardest things for me to hide in my lifetime is my heart dwelling on my sleeve. I've always been someone to stand up or speak up for myself, the people I care about, and even strangers. More often than not, it has lead to some significant moments in my life where, change had to occur.
I haven't lived at one address for more than three years, since I was in high school. For more than half my life, stability has been an issue. I haven't had a place to call home in over three years, and after losing my apartment in April of 2022, \"home\", has become an abstract thought to me.
I have mostly lived in my car during this time, occasionally staying with friends or family, but I have been unable to find the stability I need to get back within my own four walls. I am blessed to at least be able to have a car and a semi-safe place to sleep, but I will never accept that this is all there is for me. I will have the home I imagine in my head someday.
This is the faith that I hold on to.
Now, before you ask if I have worked anywhere during this span (the answer is yes), please understand that I have decided that I am un-hirable. Don't get me wrong, I love to work and I have had some jobs I loved that I had to leave for one reason or another, but at 40 years old, being under someone's employ is a deal-breaker for me.
Why? Because I am an unofficial agent of change. I recognize inconsistencies in the management of these companies, blatant hypocrisies, and I almost never hesitate to speak up about it. It's like leaving a toddler in a room with a plate of cookies.
Though the saying \"work smarter not harder\" is commonplace, sadly that doesn't always connect with some people, and that frustrates me. People cut dangerous corners in the workplace, and I'm a Wendy's kind of guy. I love those square burgers!
Funny enough, I know and accept that perhaps I was the one that hasn't been working smarter this whole time, but I was lead to keep making the same mistakes because I caved to the societal pressures I always believed did not apply to me. I had to stop being what everyone else wanted me to be and do what was right for myself.
As soon as I started doing that, the dots started to connect. The inner work started inner working and the outer experience started to improve. I still have trouble reaching an understanding with people, but I am comfortable enough with myself to not let it shake my confidence.
I am resilient and resourceful, and I have a vision that has not changed throughout this time. To run this website, help people, and build a brand that changes the way people do business. In short, I want to build the best \"job\" on the planet. We'll see how that goes.